Sunday, December 21, 2008

Manna = Bread = Jesus

Exodus 16:4
I will rain down bread from heaven for you.

After the Isrealites were rescued from the slavery they endured in Egypt, they were found walking in the desert. If you've ever been in the desert you may have noticed how hard it is to find something cool to drink, let alone filling to eat. Most animals hide so well, even snakes have to sneak up on them. So as the Isrealites (the millions of them) were begining their trek towards the promised land, they were faced with a need for food. So God performed one of the most amazing miracles in the Old Testament; the raining down of Manna. There were a couple of rules surrounding the Manna, and the one that I want to bring up is that they could only collect & consume enough Manna for that one day (except for the day of the Sabbath -see Exodus 16:5) Each morning they could only gather enough for that day, and whatever was left over the next day would turn into maggots & rot away.

So the lesson here is that I can only store up enough promises for today. I can't worry about tomorrow.

John 6:33
For the bread of God is he who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.

Jesus is having a discussion with His disciples about bread which then leads to a discussion about Manna (the bread from Heaven) and how Jesus is the true bread from Heaven. Since He is the one who was sent by God.

This passage in John 6 (25-59) intrigues me in a bunch of different ways.
1. Manna was bread that filled the Isrealites everyday & they had to specifically collect it everyday. Jesus is the bread of life that we have to specifically collect everyday to get through the day.
2. Jesus talked about this at a time when he had had quite a following of people. He had begun performing many miracles.
3. Jesus repeats He is the Bread from Heaven, and those who ate the Manna still died. But everyone who eats His flesh and drinks His blood will have eternal life.
4.Jesus spoke about eternal life through His bread/body at this poin in His ministry but didn't formalize the practice of Holy Communion until He was on the eve of His death.

The practice of communion has a profound new meaning to me after reading these verses. The rememberance of Jesus is the reality that we take & eat His bread/body to never be hungry and
drink the wine/blood to never be thirsty again.

The manna in the OT was the fulfillment of our need for food, just like Jesus is the fulfillment of our need for eternal salvation. Collecting Manna was a daily exercise and so is collecting Jesus and His teachings to get through each day & into eternity.

Finally, Jesus discussed with the disciples how hard this teaching was for them to understand. I find it difficult to figure out how to express why this intrigues me. Maybe it's how He spoke with such a radical mindset. But when you grow in knowledge, it begins to make more sense.

So the lesson here is that when/if I can understand the true message of Jesus that I will take & eat of it and have eternal life.

Manna = Bread = Jesus = Eternal Life
Quite possibly the best mathmatical equation to ever be written. God is good. Praise God for the bread from Heaven.
Merry Christmas.

There will be a Day

It seems to me that I tend to write in this post the continuance of waiting, and the attempt at resting in the timing of God. Maybe the reason for this is that I keep missing the boat, or maybe it is a message of hope that keeps needing to be communicated. We are all waiting for something. We are living out situations where we are unsure of the outcome. Some people are really good at hiding their distrust in God from others, or they are just truly able to trust God. There are little victories that I have received in this area, but as each victory I receive I am reminded how much further I truly have to go before I can stand up with certainity that I learned everything I needed to learn during this season of waiting.

Romans 8:18-25


Just in time for the Christmas season, the message of Christ...
Luke 2:11
Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to youl he is Christ the Lord.

Sin is the reason that Jesus came. He came to save us.

My struggle is with fully trusting God. He allows many opportunities where I can choose to stand up to Satan & resist his false promises, or I can question & not trust the Hope that God has placed in my heart. Satan knows how these opportunities could best shake me, and he works quite hard to try to steal away my heart & devotion from God. But Jesus rescues me in my uncertainty and promises me that "His plans will not be thrwarted" and when things seem to be going against my plans that He will work all things for His glory. These promises both encourage me and give me hope.

Romans 8:25
But if we look forward to something we don’t yet have, we must wait patiently and confidently.

He has given each one of us different promises and plans for our future. Sometimes it seems that the disappointments from today means He isn't working on His plan (but rather He is just dangling your dreams before you) but I pray that you rest in His promises and know that there is a reason for today. There is a reason for the waiting.

Friday, December 5, 2008

While I'm Waiting

While I'm Waiting - John Waller

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Finding Happiness....

This week I wrote on my facebook account that I was "happy".

The amazing part of it is that there isn't anything specific to warrant such an emotion, except finding a gentle rest in the God of all comfort. It wasn't until today when I was meditating on a sermon on Repentance that I realized really where the Happiness is coming from.

This summer I went through a season of true wrestling with God. I was shocked to reveal some of my deepest sins. The biggest sin that I struggled with (and continue to struggle with) is truly trusting & believing in the goodness of God. The part of repetance that I had to melt into is the fact that God will never be able to fully show me "why" I need to trust Him, (not that He COULDN'T do it, more of the fact that it wouldn't glorify Him to show me) but I need to honor Him by following in obedience - by trusting Him in obedience.


"What does this have to do with happiness" you ask?

On August 10 2008, God began to challenge me with trusting Him - completely. He has been telling me "wait" over & over again. He is reminding me through scripture to wait, to believe, to trust.

Wait

Believe
--Numbers 14 - If you do not believe you will not enter the promised land.

Trust
From scripture to other miraculous signs, He is showing me the way. This is how I know I am happy. I can rest in His truth, and wait for His grace and look forward to how "He is going to going to do something in [my] days that [I] would not believe, even if [I was] told."

Praise God for His goodness. May you find His joy in the trials of life.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

From Your Hands - Julian Drive




So for whatever reason, I have found myself adding music that really grabs my heart to this little blog of mine. Maybe because some of these songs are hitting me at some of the parts of journey that I need?

For whatever reason, here is my next suggestion:

From Your Hands - Julian Drive


Enjoy...




Thursday, October 23, 2008

Suffering...Submission...Surrendering

I've been doing much thinking on the topics of Suffering, Submission & Surrendering. I know that it's been awhile since I have shared my thoughts - so I'll try to not be too long winded... But as apart of this journey, let me speak of each of these ideas & how they are intertwined.

Suffering
It is necessary to suffer. I wrote an entry about this very idea. The idea that God is always working out his will in our lives in big way when we endure hardships & struggle through those times. I found verses that speak to that very idea.

2 Corin 1:3-12 - The summary of this is the fact that we share in Christ's sufferings so that we can share in His comfort. His comfort is comfort in a future salvation with Him in heaven. We go through struggles so that we can grow & learn more about putting ourselves last. To humble us.

Submission
I have recently been thinking about how badly I submit to my authorities. Those authorities range from my employer, my president and my pastor. I always have ideas about improvement. I get angry & frustrated when, "how dare they not take my idea!"

Romans 13:1 - Everyone must submit himself to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established.

The important lesson that I have learned is that GOD has placed authority in many different situations. It is MY job to support & submit to those people. It is NOT my job to question them, or become angry if they have not taken my idea. I need to respect them. Not make it more difficult.

Surrender
This has been a tougher lesson to learn. I'm not 100% sure how to fully surrender my heart over for this hope & desire. Or even ANY hope & desire.

For those who really know me, know that I am a really strong willed person. I've struggled with submitting to my leadership. Trusting in others & letting them make the mistakes. I know that even if I surrender & submit that won't keep me from suffering. That is ultimately the thing that I am dealing with. I try my hardest to keep up an easy life. But no matter what I do - I will suffer. People will hurt me. Sin will distroy. I will sin. But after all is said & done. The only thing that counts is my faith in what Christ did for me on the cross. The grace & mercy He gives me even when I mess up. Now the ultimate question is...Do I trust that God has His best in store for me? Is He working out His plan in my life? Will I get to go to the "Land of Milk & Honey"? If yes, then I have to try surrendering my will & let Him bring this hope to fruition.

Either I surrender my will, or He may MAKE me surrender my will. In this case, it's worse to ask for forgiveness - especially when He has told me what I need to do.

Let's watch in wonder to see what He does in my life. Will you pray for me? God may do something AMAZING if we just abide in Him...

Blessings to you.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Interstates, Roads & more...

I've talked about winding roads where you can't really see the path between the beginning and end of that path but you feel certain you can see what the end is going be. Recently, I got a glimpse of the path between the beginning and the end. The path we take through challenges in life is much of a journey. The scenery changes from time to time, but I get the sense that I am still on the same path.

In my walk as a single Christian woman, I have tried to remain consistent in my walk with Jesus. But, as I've walked down this road, there have been some roads that I've taken which didn't necessarily bring good things my way.


Let's first consider a map.


Maps can help us direct a plan to getting somewhere.


You've probably also heard the phrase, "there is always more than one way to get there", meaning that you could take many different paths to get to your final destination. But there is also that idea that one road can take you through bad areas to get you to your final destination.


I was thinking about this idea as it pertains to my singleness journey. I've started this journey with many friends. As time has progressed, these friends have been able to exit off of the "Singleness Interstate" either to meet up with their spouse or to temporarily take a rest from being single to date a random Joe Schmoe. If they stepped off just to date, they would generally meet back with me on that interstate.


On October 4th, my last single friend will be taking a new route with her new husband. I am very excited and happy for her! I have seen how God has worked his great plan out in her life. I could plant a tree at her "exit" and it would be blossoming beautifully. She is happy.


But this doesn't change my journey. I'm still travelling on this path, and it seems so lonely now that she is gone. I have other friends who are single but their path looks remarkably different - mostly because they are a few miles behind me in years. I've never been good at being the trailblazer in these kinds of situations. I get fearful. I always like to refer to the experiences of others to help me best plan what I would do - really just to learn from their mistakes.

There is hope. That is hope is Jesus. He has placed a desire inside my soul that He promises to fulfill. I have asked to have the desire of marriage removed if this is not His will, and still it remains. That is my hope. I have begun to praise God for the man that He is preparing to walk next to me.

I had an interaction with God this morning. There was a song on the radio that just seemed to confirm many of the things that He keeps trying to tell me. "Wait. Not Yet." Of course, two things that I DON'T want to hear, but he added this to encourage me:

The pain inside
Has erased your hope for love
Soon you will find
That I'll give you all
That your heart could ever want
And so much more

When you feel like you're alone in your sadness
It seems like no one else in this whole world cares
And you want to get away from the madness
You just call My name and I'll be there

Call My name say it now
I want you to never doubt
The love I have for you is so alive
Call My name say it now
I want you to never doubt
The love I have for you is so alive
- Third Day - Call My Name
And as He told Habakkuk...

Look at the nations and watch—
and be utterly amazed.
For I am going to do something in your days
that you would not believe,
even if you were told.
- Habakkuk 1:5
I have to believe that some day He will hold true to His promise. That walking down this journey may leave me feeling alone - but I just need to call on God to remind me of His love and His best laid plan for my life.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Rollercoasters


"Place keep hands, arms & legs inside the car at all times. Keep your
lapbelt securely fashioned for the duration of the ride."


When you are getting ready to start a Rollercoaster, you always hear these warnings & instructions as to how to behave properly on the ride. Then when you get on the ride you sometimes think about testing the limits on those "rules" but that depends on how intense the ride is.

Sometimes I behave the same way with my Christian walk. Before getting on the ride, I didn't really pay much attention to the warnings.

John 16:33
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace.
In this
world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the
world."

So now that I am on the "ride" I tend to stick my arms & even my legs (scary) out of the car trying to spruce up the enjoyment. Maybe I even do this to try to be more independent - not wanting to fully rely on the car to hold me in.

But the problem is, when the ride starts going in a direction I didn't expect, I start to panic! "What?! Why are we going this way? This isn't fun? Let's not go facedown at a 90degree angle at break-neck speed!" But the reality, who am I to tell God which direction to take this car? I keep battling with this issue. I keep hoping that He'll change His mind if I whine loud enough or cry out hard-enough.

My dear friend Habakkak had this same struggle:

2 How long, O LORD, must I call for
help,
but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, "Violence!"
but you do not save?
3 Why do you make me look at
injustice? Why do you tolerate wrong? (Hbk 1:2-3)


And similarily, God responds to me in the same way He responded to him:

"Look at the nations and watch—and be utterly amazed. For I am going
to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told." (Hbk 1:5)
Yet still, I keep complaining & arguing with God. But I tend to add a little bit of manipulation attempts to get Him to change His mind:

Your eyes are too pure to look on evil; you cannot tolerate
wrong. Why then do you tolerate the treacherous? Why
are you silent while the wicked swallow up those more righteous than
themselves? (Hbk 1:13)
And yet still, His mind can not be changed:

"Write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets so that a
herald may run with it.
3 For the revelation awaits an appointed
time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for
it; it will certainly come and will not delay.
4 "See, he is puffed up; his desires are not upright— but the righteous will live
by his faith (Hbk 2:3-4)
There is much that it seems that God is teaching me through the prophet Habakkuk. And it boils down to this:
  • Life does not revolve around me
  • I cannot change God's mind
  • He has a GREAT plan in mind
  • He has NOT forgotten me & is preparing me for great things

And

  • My desires need to be aligned with His will & not be about my pride
  • the Righteous will live by Faith

So I can best enjoy this ride if I keep all hands, arms & legs inside the car at all times. And keep the lapbelt securely fastened during the duration of the ride. He promises some great action - things that I wouldn't be able to imagine. But I must stay on His course. His plan. His Rollercoaster. The best coaster on the planet.

And lastly....some lyrics to a song that I really came to love today:
"What Life Would Be Like" - Big Daddy Weave
I wish I was more of a man
Have you ever felt that way
And if I had to tell you the truth I’m afraid I’d have to say
That after all I’ve done and failed to do
I feel like less than I was meant to be
And what if I could fix myself
Maybe then I could get free
I could try to be somebody else
Whose much better off than me
But I need to remember this
That it’s when I’m at my weakest
I can clearly see

He made the lame walk
And the dumb talk
He opened blinded eyes to see
That the sun rises on His time
Yet He knows our deepest desperate need
And the world waits
While His heart aches
To realize the dream

I wonder what life would be like
If we let JESUS live through you and me

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Everything

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light - That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away. Would you take me in? Take
me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need - You're
everything,everything

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? How can I stand
here with you and not be moved by you?Would you tell me how could it be any
better than this?


Lifehouse: Everything

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Junior High & Dances

Thursday night I had the pleasure of going to a training session for this place called The Powerhouse. It's a place where kids can come after school and hang out and where adults can build relationships with kids aging between 12-18 (6th grade through Senior in High School). Last year my house church volunteered here on Friday nights for their "Glo" program. Glo is basically a safe dance club for these kids. It is quite fun. There is a lot of Mt. Dew and pizza consumed. It is quite a fun time. It kind of takes me back to a time in my life of school dances & trying to figure myself out.

During the meeting, one of the directors reminded us about some of these times of our lives. She asked us to think back to that time. I can remember that middle school dance. A slow song starts up and you are talking with a boy that you really like. He is a good friend and you have several classes together and he seems to be such a nice guy. Deep inside, your stomach turns with anticipation. Is he going to ask me to dance? This is such a great song! It is one of my favorites. Oh I hope he asks me to dance... You keep talking with him, and the song gets closer to the middle. Oh the anxiety you feel. It's almost more than you can take! So as an akward 12 year old, do take matters into your own hands and risk rejection and just ask him to dance? Or do you just wait to let him make the move?

Even now, at 30, I'm waiting for an answer to that same question. What is answer? Is it really just as simple as feeling comfortable with the answer you may or may not receive? Or is it resting patiently in the response that God has in store? I'm sure there are so many differing opinions out there.

Before, I really make a decision on this, I want say something in regards to respect. This week I have really been struggling with this idea of respect. At times I have little (if any) respsect for my leaders. This can even include the One who created me. Why is this? I suppose they question isn't "Why" as I can certainly give you the easy answer of sin...I guess my question is, if I understand that this is not honoring to God or the people the lack of respect is directed at, then why can't I shake my attitude?

So this goes back to the Jr. High dance...I could ask the guy to dance, and just take matters into my own hands, but I'm not sure that is going to express any sort of respect to him. Certainly the ages of the players are different and the circumstances are more serious than just a simple dance - but if I can ever learn to fully give over control & repsect him maybe it is just as simple as waiting patiently for him to get the courage, or learning that I am the one he wants to dance with - then the wait would all be worth it. If he misses this song, there will be more if he is meant to dance with me through this life.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Suffering

This weekend I had the pleasure of visiting my 91 year old grandpa. I hadn’t seen him for over 2 years since he lived 10hours away. I didn’t have too much of an opportunity to really talk with him as he wanted to sleep all day, and didn’t have much interest on staying awake to chat. So while Grandpa was sleeping, it provided me an opportunity to meet some other people who are living at the same care facility that he is staying at.

So, God introduced me to Louie. Louie is in his early 80’s and his wife Adelaide is also at the same facility and she is suffering from severe Dementia and doesn’t remember him. When I first started talking to him, he asked me “Why do you care about me? Why do people have to suffer? Why can’t they just die?” We started talking about how his wife is dying, but she’s been in this same state-of-being for about 3years now. They had just moved from another care facility where they didn’t have enough medical help to properly care for his wife.

With tears in his eyes, he asked me why they have to keep living, when he is just somewhere awaiting his time to die. Why pay the money? Why do we (meaning me) pay for him to wait to die? These questions really hit me hard.

On my drive to Wisconsin, I had listened to this great sermon on 1 Samuel 19 & suffering. Basically, the ultimate question was: Is God only at work when things are going well? Sometimes it certainly seems that way. When things don’t seem to be going well, or when I am in the midst of a terrible struggle, it seems that God must not be working in my life. While I was listening to this sermon, this whole thought process was blown out of the water. Jesus suffered. He suffered in ways that seem so unbearable. So the question is, if God only works when things are going well, does that mean that God was not at work when Christ was crucified? Of course not! Talk about the greatest display of God working! It brought me to a new perspective on verses such as:
· Romans 8:17 - Now if we are
children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we
share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his
glory.
· Luke 24:26 - Did not
the Christ have to suffer these things and then enter his
glory?"
· Philippians 1:29 -
For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him,
but also to suffer for him,
·
James 1:2 - Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many
kinds,
These verses talk about the fact that it is necessary to suffer here on earth, just as Christ did, so that we can share Christ’s glory in heaven, too. Many times I’ve thought that suffering is really experiencing pain on behalf of Christ, and that true suffering is really only what happens to people who are proclaiming the Gospel of Christ in some other country. But the reality is that we all suffer, and that God is working through those times.

So as Louie was talking to me about his pain, this concept of suffering came to mind. I was able to share with Him the message of hope of Jesus despite the struggle of his situation & his wife’s situation. He struggled also with knowing what the right message to believe in is. It was truly humbling to see.

Friends, I am not sure what struggles you all endure in, whether they seem big or small in your eyes. But know that God is working to establish HIS kingdom through this suffering, so that we can direct our eyes to Jesus. If you think of it, please pray for Louie. Pray that God’s truth will be clear and evident in his heart & that healing would come quickly for Adelaide.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Proverbs 31 - yuck?

I’ve struggled with what the Proverbs 31 woman lays out in imagery; especially as a single woman. But the question is…was the Proverbs 31 woman only these things once she became married? Of course not! I’m sure that there were many lessons that she had to learn through the process as a married woman, but some of these traits she learned before she was even betrothed.

“Strength and dignity are her clothing, And she smiles at
the future”

This verse (Proverbs 31:25) has many different implications on her outlook on God. One of my biggest struggles (& probably most who follow Christ) is in the idea of trusting God’s ultimate sovereignty. In this verse she smiles at the future, because she trusts in God’s will, timing, sovereignty, etc. She is able to rest confidently in God & not freak out in the stickiest of circumstances.

So in regards to her character, isn’t this the kind of character we all desire, both married and single? Don’t we wish to learn to trust God in the most uncertain of circumstances and not freak out? So much that wages in me struggles to rest certainly of the hands of God. But so often I can look back with my 20/20 vision and acknowledge the glorious path that God has taken me on.

Father God,
Thank you so much for the blessing of seeing you work in my life. Forgive me for fearing the next steps. You have proven time & time again in my life and in others that shows how you ultimately care and provide for each of our needs. You know not only what we need, but also what we want. You fulfill the desires of our hearts when they are perfectly aligned with your will. My prayer is to be able to rest securely in the peace of who you are. Teach my heart & mind to not lose sight of the fact that you see the big picture. Help me to depend on you like a child depends on their parents.
Your grace is enough, and Your strength is made perfect in my weakness.
Amen.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Time

I've been wanting to post something over the past couple of days, but there have been so many things that I have wanted to say that I figured that it would probably be a post that was pages upon pages. But I thought to myself that you probably wouldn't take the time to read a really long post - unless of course you don't have a life and enjoy blog-stalking. ;) Just kidding!

Some things I have been learning/pondering/wrestling through:
- Repentance (What's the deal with this?)
- Yoke (Why is an egg so important?)
- Hope (This is kind of a repeat from a few months ago)
- Choosing God's best vs my best

This summer has been quite a great summer. When it first began I knew that God had some great big things to teach me. Or I guess I hoped that there was a purpose that this summer was going to have. You see, 2 months ago, I was learning about myself and the way that I approach relationships. God took away a relationship (hopefully only for a short time) and my hope & understanding of that time is so that I could learn more about me. Well, even if the outcome is not going to be how I would hope, I still know that it was not all in vain.

I am not sure if I wrote about Co-dependancy (or more appropriately termed "Fear of Man") but after some deep discovery, I realized that this is something that is hidden within my heritage. It has brought itself through the years, and is now in my hands. And I have a choice. I can learn from it, or I can continue through life with the same struggles as those who have gone before me & pass it down to my children. The problem with the "Fear of Man" is that it is disguised in many forms. It is disguised as low self-esteem, in unhealthy friendships, in unmet desires, in wanting others to like you, in living your life out of fear of someone else. Now, no, I am not "afraid" of man (or men), but rather as I have dug into my soul, I realized how much I live trying to please other people. But it also is masked with how sometimes my desire to unknowingly manipulate another person to try to get them to do something I want them to do.

The best part of all of this discovery, is the fact that as I look into some of my relationships, I can see the healthy ones - the relationships where they do not buy into this behavior. I have a friend who has not bought into one bit of my schemes to try to get them to like me. They have liked me genuinely from the beginning of our friendship. They have been quick to be kind to me, or say nice things to me. But the minute I started to manipulate them into hanging out with me, they just didn't respond. This could be God also preserving this relationship. Whatever the reason, I am grateful for the process that it is taking.

So as August moves closer, I can say that it has been a great summer! I still can't believe 6 months have moved through life so quickly, but this time has been truly fruitful. Praise God for the things He has shown me, as well as all the things he will show me in the future. God is Great and is to be praised for his mighty acts of power!

Friday, June 27, 2008

God is bigger than...

How big is our God?
He is bigger than my deepest fears.
He is bigger than all of my unfulfilled desires.
He is bigger than each sin I commit (or omit).
He is bigger than a boring job.
He is bigger than a fight with a friend.
He is bigger than....and the list goes on and on.

So often when I am faced with a fearful situation, I lose sight of who God is, and the kind of control He has over that situation. And all situations really. It has been so hard to get it through my thick head that "God works all things for the good". That's right ALL things.

Even now, as I write this the fear of relying on Him fully grips at my heart. I experience some anxiety. But as Hebrews 4:16 says "Let us approach the throne of grace with confidence", I can go to him and with confidence. So often I walk this walk with an expectation that God wants me to do it alone. Independancy is a trait that the western world has taken a liking to. I have it in my home, in my job and most of my relationships. But alone has never been His plan. His whole purpose in creation is to create people to be dependant on Him! He even says "I will never leave you".

I am not perfect. In this imperfection, I am slowly letting go of the need to hold onto the facade to show others. Jesus died on that cross so that I don't have to hang my head low for my depravity. I can approach him with the areas that I struggle with. I can say, "Jesus, I am struggling with [insert issue here] and I don't have the strength to do this. Give me the strength I need to obey you."

Praise God for his greatness!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Mexico - Days 1,2 & 3

Day 1&2
30 of us went to Detroit to fly & 31 of us went to Chicago to fly on Friday night. I went through Chicago. Saturday both groups arrived nearly 45min within each other and all things went well. We drove down to the San Quentin valley in mexico. Tijuana was even pretty simple. Our van got stopped, but nothing crazy. Just a quick, "Where are you going?" & a quick response "We're on vacation". Hmm... But all in all, it was good.

Day 3 - Sunday
Nothing real notable occured this day. Except maybe to say that we had some good grub for dinner. A really spicy sauce, but tasty (can't remember the name of the item) none the less.
Though, I think that Sunday was the day that we stayed up late singing during an impromptu worship night. ( I suppose the days are already running together).