In my walk as a single Christian woman, I have tried to remain consistent in my walk with Jesus. But, as I've walked down this road, there have been some roads that I've taken which didn't necessarily bring good things my way.
Let's first consider a map. Maps can help us direct a plan to getting somewhere.
You've probably also heard the phrase, "there is always more than one way to get there", meaning that you could take many different paths to get to your final destination. But there is also that idea that one road can take you through bad areas to get you to your final destination.
I was thinking about this idea as it pertains to my singleness journey. I've started this journey with many friends. As time has progressed, these friends have been able to exit off of the "Singleness Interstate" either to meet up with their spouse or to temporarily take a rest from being single to date a random Joe Schmoe. If they stepped off just to date, they would generally meet back with me on that interstate.
On October 4th, my last single friend will be taking a new route with her new husband. I am very excited and happy for her! I have seen how God has worked his great plan out in her life. I could plant a tree at her "exit" and it would be blossoming beautifully. She is happy.
But this doesn't change my journey. I'm still travelling on this path, and it seems so lonely now that she is gone. I have other friends who are single but their path looks remarkably different - mostly because they are a few miles behind me in years. I've never been good at being the trailblazer in these kinds of situations. I get fearful. I always like to refer to the experiences of others to help me best plan what I would do - really just to learn from their mistakes.
There is hope. That is hope is Jesus. He has placed a desire inside my soul that He promises to fulfill. I have asked to have the desire of marriage removed if this is not His will, and still it remains. That is my hope. I have begun to praise God for the man that He is preparing to walk next to me.
I had an interaction with God this morning. There was a song on the radio that just seemed to confirm many of the things that He keeps trying to tell me. "Wait. Not Yet." Of course, two things that I DON'T want to hear, but he added this to encourage me:
The pain inside
Has erased your hope for love
Soon you will find
That I'll give you all
That your heart could ever want
And so much more
When you feel like you're alone in your sadness
It seems like no one else in this whole world cares
And you want to get away from the madness
You just call My name and I'll be there
Call My name say it now
I want you to never doubt
The love I have for you is so alive
Call My name say it now
I want you to never doubt
The love I have for you is so alive
- Third Day - Call My Name
And as He told Habakkuk...
Look at the nations and watch—
and be utterly amazed.
For I am going to do something in your days
that you would not believe,
even if you were told.
- Habakkuk 1:5
I have to believe that some day He will hold true to His promise. That walking down this journey may leave me feeling alone - but I just need to call on God to remind me of His love and His best laid plan for my life.
