Hebrews 4:16
Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
This being my first official blog post on this site, I am hoping to adequately articulate my thoughts about this journey I have been asked to walk called singleness. In a few short months I will be hitting my 30th year in this life. Sure, age is just a number that we use to count time relative to others & their number.
When you are in high school, you are faced with the opportunity that the world is your canvas and the painting you create is up to you. The freedom you have & the dreams that can come true is an endless set of possibilities. Though 30 is the next 20, it seems that life is nothing that I would have ever thought it would look like - at least not through these lenses.
This is where the idea of trusting my Creator comes into play. If Romans 8:28 is true, then we can be sure that everything that has happened to me up to this point has all been in God's plan. This is a tough place to be at since I want what I want & when I want it...But even in the midst of my self-will wanting to rule over my heart, my heart is fighting to listen to God and realize that His ultimate best is coming to fruition in my life.
I was reading an email I received this week that touched on the idea of Eve's ultimate desire to have knowledge of everything - good & evil. It's kind of like the idea that hopes in life are in a game of "Door #1 & Door #2".
Behind good ole Door #1 is an image of everything that you could imagine that is good. A well-paying, satisfying job; the most attractive man with all the best qualities ever; well-behaved children & perfect ministry - all behind a piece of glass.
Behind Door #2 is...well we don't know. It's all behind a solid wood door with no holes or windows. But what if you were told EVERY one of your dreams, hopes & desires would be fulfilled behind Door #2. Would you trust the messenger?
Eve chose Door #1. But the problem is, she didn't see the consequences. The question I need to ask myself "Is it worth choosing Door #1 since I can see all that is available, or am I willing to risk all of my desires to see how good Door #2 really is?"
I hope that as we experience this journey together, that we'll see which option I choose. So, I will approach the throne of grace with confidence and hope to recieve mercy and to find God's grace to help me through this time.
